Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Yes a new computer..
Well it isn't mine but oh well something is better than nothing right. At least I get to sit here and blog for a bit. Everything is going fine so far. Had an awesome holiday with my sister and her family and oh yes a friend. Enjoyed every minute of it!! I got to see my little girl also.. ya she wanted to spend the weekend with daddy so she could go get candy but she has no school on Monday due to a teachers thing so I took her for the day. It was so nice to see her. I do miss her so much!! Sometimes I do not know how to answer her questions. She told me the other day that she isnt happy anymore like the way she used to be. That she sits at home with daddy and watches TV and is unhappy. I asked her why and she could not answer me.. well she wouldnt answer me because he did not want to get me upset. I asked her if it was because she missed me and Chris, she just shook her head yes. I told her it was ok for her to miss us and we are just a phone call away. She then said well sometimes it is late at night and I can not call you, so I told her when we go out and buy her the dream journal that she can write us letters in there and when she comes over to visit I will read them. I told her when mommy writes in her journal it makes me feel better. She eyes opened wide and was happy with that. It has been a bit over year since she has been living with her father and I do not think it turned out the way she thought. Daddy does spend more time with her, but the sounds of it she also spends more time with aunt, uncle and there children and another aunt. My ex wasn't to much of a full time parent like I was, but I think that is a mother thing, but I know he is trying her best. It has been hard sometimes to let her go after raising her for 9 years, but I keep telling myself it is her fathers turn to have her now....We went out before I brought her home and got her the dream/missing journal and she was so happy. She hates going back home because she doesn't want to leave me, but she knows she will see me again.